Where have I been? I’m still around-I promise. I’m just taking a little bit of “me time”. I can explain!
I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom, emotional eating and hunger. There I said it! I’ve never been a size 2-EVER! With that said, I never considered myself disgustingly over weight….until recently. I’ll spare you all what the scale ACTUALLY says, because saying it out loud-or worse-typing it means it’s actually true. I’ve always overly thought about my weight, I’m a chic, it’s what we do!! It’s something I’ve always been self-cautious about and I’m sure I’m not unlike any other girl out there who struggles with body image. I don’t sit at my computer and obsess about it all day but when it’s time to find that “cute outfit” for the weekend or better yet, time to get fitted for one of your best friends bridesmaids dress…it’s KINDA hard to forget about it.
I remember after having Mallory and struggling with my weight, people would say “YOU JUST HAD A BABY”….BUT she was only ONE POUND and that was 6 years ago. I’ve learned to love myself-all of me but lately……well…..
As tough as it is for me to admit-or say it out loud, I’ll tell you-the time has come! Recently, I’ve been looking over some photographs taken from my trip to Vegas or even shots that Greg got of me from “behind the scenes”….and as I looked at the photographs of myself I thought: “THAT is NOT ME!”. In my mind, I don’t look like that…but reality is a huge slap on the face sometimes. Somewhere between having a full time job, running a business, having a family, and home renovations I have lost myself. I have fantastic work ethic, it’s something I PRIDE myself on, but when it comes to ME time, taking care of myself is always put on the back burner….and I want that to change.
Recently, I’ve been going to kick boxing with one of my best friends in an effort to “get myself back”. The ladies that go to that class are so supportive and we have a great time. I realize I will never be bikini worthy-in all honesty I DON’T want to be…but I do want to be healthy. So this is my public announcement because if I don’t, I won’t hold myself accountable. I am going to be making more “ME” time to workout and eat healthy to get MYSELF back.
So here I am Internet, putting it out there so that I’m accountable. If you want to come with me on my “get fit” journey-the more the merrier. 🙂 So let the journey begin. And if you see me out in public walking around with a chocolate donut, smack that sucker right out of my hand…then give me a hug and tell me to walk 5 miles! 🙂 HAHHA!!
